Is it the calm before the storm of the calm after the storm?
Is it up to me? No.
Have I already made the biggest leap or are there still leaps and bounds to be made ahead?
I'm on the middle ground.
I can't figure out what's next - am I suppose to be able to?
I feel like the life I have been living is breaking off. It look like its own separate island. I could be sad or mad or fearful but why waste time?
Now I get to move ahead to see what God has in store for me. I have no idea where I will end up but I have the direction of the Lord to lead me. "The Lord says, "I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you." And then He adds, "Do not be like a senseless horse or mule that needs a bit and bridle to keep it under control" Psalm 32: 8-9. I love that our God is so direct! I do not want to be like a senseless mule, I can tell you that is FOR SURE! :)
So now, the path forward...It's the most nerve racking, educational, exciting experience and the anticipation is undenyable. I must remember that I'm not lost and I'm not alone.
Although it is quiet at times in this place, it is what I do with the silence that makes the difference.
I can speak of it but sometimes cause confusion and anxiety.
All I want to do is take your hand and bring you along. Why is there such uncertainty?
"I prayed to the Lord, and he answered me. He freed me from all my fears. Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces. In my desperation I prayed, and the Lord listened; he saved me from all my troubles. For the angel of the Lord is a guard; he surrounds and defends all who fear him" Psalm 34: 4-7.
