It has been a recent struggle, hearing the truth - hearing only the truth. Instead it has been chaos when I try to listen; a thousand voices from every opposite direction and anxiety. Well, now that I think twice, not only when I want to listen but instead when I'm doing anything in which my mind has the opportunity to wander.
I think it is a result of stress, unknowing what the future holds and other items bouncing around in my mind. But really, everyone I know has things that cause anxiety in their life and yet they can manage to focus it seems.
Despite this struggle, God still has a way of breaking through and showing himself to me. But, I feel tomorrow is going to be like a fresh, gasping breakthrough. I want my baptism to wash away and release this extra baggage that I carry around; this baggage which is in no way beneficial.
"And now, just as you accepted Christ Jesus as your Lord, you must continue to follow him. Let your roots grow down into him, and let your lives be built on him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught, and you will overflow with thankfulness." Colossians 2: 6-7.
I want this unnecessary baggage to be washed away so I can "grow down into him." What a perfect picture. This is exactly what I feel is hard for me to do and I want so badly to be able to.
And so tomorrow, I am prepared to let go. To take a giant step forward in my faith and grow deep.
